THE RUFFETT CHAPTERS: Break ing do wn

Hello again.

This hopefully won't be a regular thing.

I'm breaking down.

Let me break it down for you.

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All my life I have been strong and content. Then I met this fabulous girl and when she left me, I lost everything. NO, I'm not typing her name here. Her name is irrelevant. The point is that she saw through me when no one else could. Not my mom, not my father, and not even my sister.

NO ONE SAW ME THE WAY SHE SAW ME.

And it hurt me. Do you know how hard it is to communicate to someone when you're broken? Difficult but not impossible.

And the crazy part is she didn't even know what she was doing. She was just being she and I was trying to be me but struggling. REALLY struggling.

She made me realize I should be happy as me and not these fucked up versions of me. My parents want a different me. They want their son back. Well, guess what? Your son never left, but you did. You left a long time ago and I wish you would come back because I need you. I need you as much as I need her.

But she's gone and I should move on.

But fuck moving on.

With writes,

-Hopeless Taxi (Andy Ruffett)