Wednesday, April 6, 2016

THE RUFFETT CHAPTERS: I Have No Friends

That's not true. I have many friends. But I have never felt that any of those friends I've been really close to except George and Mike. They are my best friends. Sorry everyone else who is not reading this anyway since I didn't send you the link.

There is Dominic and Mitch though. Are they friends of mine? Yes, but they're not my best friends. We don't connect the same way that I connect with Mike and George. Mike and George I could call on a whim and ask out and they would be down. Yes, I said "ask out". No, I'm not gay. Shit, did I just confirm that I am? Sorry. I'M NOT GAY. I have nothing against Gay people I'm just not one of them. Sorry, boys. Go find someone else to enjoy.

Anyway, where was I? I find that you have some friends that only enjoy going to the bar. They're not down for anything else. George and I, we can do anything. Mike and I, we mostly go see films but it's always fun with them. Bars are not always fun. Sorry, Dominic and Mitch. Hey guys, if you have better ideas: let me know. There's a FOR THE WIN by my place that I'd love to go to.

Currently, I am unemployed and miserable. My best friend Christie left me a year ago and I deeply miss her. Every day I miss her. I really wish she was back with me. I've changed, Christie! I've changed! The thing with Christie is she is beautiful and she could have any guy she ever wanted and she never wanted me. And you can't be friends with someone who you secretly have a crush on. But it wasn't a secret: she knew full well that I was in love with her. And it hurt her because she knew she couldn't love me the same way. Now, I need her. Everyone else I hang out with, I just don't feel the same passion for. Yes, I want to date Christie. But I also loved our hangouts. She was never judgemental of me. I could be free and myself with her more than anyone else.

There's my friend Taylor. She's a cool gal, but I don't know maybe it's because of the romantic relationship that I wanted with Christie that just makes me need Christie more than Taylor. I don't know.

No. I'm not ending this post with "I don't know". I must continue. I guess I'm an extremely lonely fuck who's gone off the rails lately. I would write about unemployment but that's for another time.

With writes,

-Sad Andy (Andy Ruffett)

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